Sunday, August 21, 2011

falling asleep at the keyboard

Last night was so perfect for me in so many ways.. Madeline helped me laugh and forget the world, and I was able to feel at such peace which I have been longing for in a long time. Where do I begin?? Well, Madeline left  around midinght and I was so ready to plop onto my bed and close my eyes. But for some reason... I wasnt suppose to go to bed, so I stayed up. 2 o'clock in the morning came around and I finally decided to go to bed... About five minutes later, i recieved a call from my brother anouncing that my sister-in-law was going to have a baby (four weeks early) and that he was going to rush her to the E.R. and they needed me go to their house to take care of my two sweet nieces! I rushed over there at 2:30 and they left immediately. Feeling a little tired beeing 3 in the morning, I decided to help clean up the house. It came to 4:47 in the morning and I finally was able to lay down on the couch and fall asleep. As i layed there, i replayed some fun memories I had of a close friend of mine.. I started to fall asleep when all of a sudden i heard screaming. I raced downstairs where the girls were.. panicking that something had happened to them. I still cant forget that scream. I wrapped Kaitlyn in my arms as she sobbed because she had a horrible dream... I shed a few tears along with hers and we laughed as we looked at each other realizing we were making silly faces at each other. It took me about 30 minutes to calm her down and make her happy again. She wanted to come sleep on the couch upstairs with me. As I longed for rest, we set up our blankets on the skinny couch that we would share and cuddle. I looked at my phone and couldnt believe it was 5:13 in the morning! I eventually layed on the couch and closed my eyes so i could forget everything.. I felt so peaceful and full of emotion at the same time. Kaitlyn all of a sudden full of energy started cracking jokes and telling me about all the dreams she had had in her past... I wanted to go to bed so bad but i knew that this was a special day for her, the day her little brother was born. We talked and talked and i sang her songs to fall asleep. I looked at the clock again and it said that it was 6:30 in the morning and I knew that the day would be long. I fell asleep on myself. It felt like i was sleeping for two minutes when i dreaded waking up to an excited Hannah sticking her fingers in my ear... ugh i wanted to sleep so bad! I grabbed my phone hoping it was 2 in the afternoon but saw that it was only 8:30. So, long story short... im tired! two beautiful hours of sleep has lasted me enough through today which im grateful for!  As i told my mom this story.. she welcomed me to motherhood.. I feel so welcome:)
it was all so worth it... just to see the perfect family so happy:)
But as this day has gone through.. i have come to see so many blessings that i have recieved in the simplest form.. Just a feeling of peace, comfort, and love is all i needed... And i got it. So this experience has helped me grow so much in so many ways.

Dinner is expected so i have to go cook it up! (My parents are in Hawaii) and then I will be taking the girls to the hospital to see their new baby brother. Lincoln Michael Ririe:)

Sincerely, Ashlyn

P.S. Im new at this whole blog thing.. and I think that I need to learn how to shorten my posts!

1 comment:

  1. I love this. Don't shorten your posts; I enjoyed reading every word.
    My gosh, I've missed you ash.
    Can't wait to see you at school today!!! (: (:
    You're an angel, and going to be such a sweet mama someday. I learn so much from you; and you amaze me. I love you Ashlyn Ririe!